HYPE is out!

I’m so proud of it. I feel like a momma who’s just given birth to her first born. Katy Perry looks really pretty huh?

Anyways! You can get HYPE by coming down to the HYPEd Up! Flea Market happening tomorrow at *SCAPE from 2 to 9 pm! We have over 60 stalls at the flea selling cool stuff, and local bands like Trella, Postbox, Duxton Plains and Run Neon Tiger playing! Don’t miss it! It’s our inaugural event yo~ ^^

If you miss out on it, we have some copies of HYPE here at these locations stated below!

And lastly! If you suay suay still cannot get HYPE from these locations, we’ll be releasing the online version of it over here from Aug 7! Check out this site k!

Alrighty that’s it! Got to get back to npTribune Issue 2. D:

Once it’s done… hur hur. I will get back my life!!!

PS: Check out my new blog post, NP’s absolutely the best!, over at NP Friends Day Blog.

Hahahahaha that’s cause HYPE’s done!

As in it’s completed in its editing and design and stuff, and over the next week or so I’ll be uploading posts and promoting the contests that we have! Hehe. We have quite a lot like a pair of SINGfest tickets, Tokio Hotel Special Limited Edition CD + DVDs, tickets to plays, food vouchers and stuff. Thinking about it now, I don’t think we’ve done too shabby a job. The content could be improved, of course, in certain areas, but no one’s perfect. D:

Everything now hinges on HYPE being printed out on time. I mean like, we’ve sent for colourproofing already, and all that’s left now is to check it later (we’re heading down to the printers) and if everything’s fine, we can send it to print straightaway! I really hope it’s all right!

I feel quite cheery thinking about it like this, though that might be the caffeine messing with my head. It’s 3.39 am and I’m feeling quite awake, strangely. I blame the fact that I had to go and try that icky Hazelnut Latte from Tom N Toms. It was a pretty strange coffee. I didn’t like it at all.

And I think I’ve managed to separate my heart from my head? Hur. I mean, I no longer feel weird and stuff about my emotional thingies now, and it’s like, I dunno. I guess I’ve rationalised things in my head? I mean, I listed out all the cons of why I shouldn’t give into emotion in this case, and it’s helped, really. It makes it easier to focus on the negative stuff, though the positive things still happen everyday.

I’m still a girl, though, so I dream of that day when I’ll find that right person for me. Hur. Don’t laugh! It’s perfectly natural k.

Moving on though, now all that’s left for internship is Triiiiibuuuuuneeeeeee. D: D: D: D: D:

Articles to edit and proofread and zomg I feel a headache coming on again. After HYPE it feels like all the energy’s been sapped out of me. D:

So soooooooorrrrrrrrryyyyy for this lack of motivation JYYYYYY. D:

Oh, and today I went home. My mum’s finally reached her limit – she can’t stand me staying over at the Loft anymore. She was going on about how I MUST go home this Friday and stay at home over the weekends. LOL. Then aiyah, same old things lor. What else would a parent say.

“Is this really what you want to do? Work until no day no night. If this is how it is like in school, then wouldn’t you die if you worked in the industry?! MUST TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. Drink plenty of water. Don’t give me surprise present ah. Save money, eat bread.”

LOL. And yes, that surprise present <= grandkid on the way ahahahahhaaha.

Of course not la! Siao. No boyfriend, why the heck would I go out and shag a random stranger and get myself knocked up ya. D:

Speaking of getting knocked up, HUR. I’ve received interesting news that apparently one of my secondary school acquaintances did just that and is now the proud mother of a cute 8-month-old baby. Oh, and married too. I mean, it’s just… WOAH.

A bit hard to digest, seeing as it’s only been 3 years since we all graduated from sec school. And yet, so much has changed.

Anyway, back to my mum.

MUMMY, WHY YOU THINK SO LITTLE OF ME ONE?!?!?!?! D: D: D:

I feel depressed now. LOL. K. Was just joking. Enough of the dramz already. I shall go back to editing and be a productive person, unlike my designer, D, and the rest of the other editors who are sleeping. LOL. JK.

It doesn’t seem to die away despite my attempts to fight them. I wish I knew what was going on in your head. I wish I could stop this heartache. I wish you would talk to me. I wish you’d tell me your secrets, ’cause I’d tell you mine if you asked. It doesn’t look like we’re ever going to happen, so I’m still trying to give up on these hopeless feelings that plague me.

It hurts.

I don’t know. It would make things so much easier if there was a right thing for everything. You’d know if you were doing it wrong, and what you should aspire to be.

I don’t know. This is yet another half baked thought I couldn’t articulate properly. Like the many other things I can’t say properly, like the many other things I’m not doing right, like the many other things I shouldn’t be feeling.

Am I too direct in my way of speaking? Is it too blunt, too harsh, too forward? I don’t know. Should I be more subtle? How do I do so? I don’t know. All I know is that this is just how I speak.

As for HYPE, I don’t want to think about it for a little while. I just want to- I don’t know what.

And as for my feelings, well, it’s easy. It’s over and done with. I’m not going to think about it any longer. There’s no reciprocal feelings, and frankly, I don’t blame him. With a person like me who’s flawed in so many different ways and no redeeming qualities of any sort, even I wouldn’t be interested in me. All signs I’d thought I’d seen were naught but my own delusions, lying to me in the hopes of finding a partner, at last. Lmao. Of course it isn’t going to happen la!

Ah well. That’s the end of it. No more strange feelings clogging up my mind and preventing me from doing the things I should be doing.

I guess it’s called giving up.

Yeap. Well, in any case, I’ve been feeling really emo lately. Not surprising, seeing as it’s the last lap for HYPE and I’m just really trying to keep going even though I feel really tired and all. I just feel so close to the end of my tether, like I’m about to snap and lose my grip on what little shreds of sanity I have left.

I also end up frikkin’ emo and end up creating weird wallpapers like this:

Hur hur. Yes. I guess it is a little creepy. I mean the eyes and all. But. I mean, isn’t preeeetty? That intense look contrasted against the velvety crinkle of the leather gloves. I don’t like the redness in the right eye, though, so if I’m bored enough I might just go photoshop it out.

And yes… I use GeekTool. ;D

Okay… I’ve kind of run out of stuff to say. Got to get back to editing, we’re just left with a little more to go for HYPE. D:

In an attempt to be productive, I blocked twitter, facebook, hotmail, and even my own website so that I wouldn’t be able to log onto them and get all distracted and stuff.

It’s good… It worked.

Only thing is… I can’t unblock them now. FML.

The weight of this responsibility is pushing down on me.

I can’t stop this rapid breathing, can’t stop hyperventilating.

It’s pushing and pulling me and I can’t breathe properly.

There’s just too much nervous energy bouncing around me.

I’m extremely distressed.

I need help.

]]> http://itsrainin9.com/2010/07/breathe/feed/ 3 http://itsrainin9.com/2010/07/spell/ http://itsrainin9.com/2010/07/spell/#comments Sun, 04 Jul 2010 08:39:48 +0000 rainin9 http://itsrainin9.com/2010/07/spell/ Somehow my iTunes started playing this song and all I can think of is that this song fits my mood perfectly.

Beauty emanates from every word that you say
You’ve captured the deepest thoughts
In the purest, and simplest of ways
But you see, I’m not that graceful, Like you
Nor am I as eloquent
But just a simple melody
Can change the way that you see me

And right now, I have you
For a moment I can tell I’ve got you
Cuz your lips don’t move
And something is happening
Cuz your eyes tell me the truth
I’ve put a spell over you

And that I’m not going to think about anything. Despite what Shamus said last night. That’s the only way to get through this without it turning into another Spike D. So I’m going to try. I’m going to try not to think about anything except work.

Sigh.

Wish me luck in that.

I like to read this site, Astrology Zone, and Susan Miller (the writer) has pretty good horoscopes written up for free. And July’s horoscope is up already!

Your office life will be the topic of the full moon, July 25, for it looks like you will be wrapping up an important assignment. This full moon just brims with good energy. Jupiter will reach out to that moon, and on the next day, July 26, to the Sun, indicating you will impress the powers at the very top. Saturn will be supportive, as will Uranus and Mars – now that’s a LOT of planetary support!

Here’s how to use this new moon. If you like, you can pitch new business if you are self-employed or make a major presentation. If you hand in a finished project within five days of this date, you will be very proud of what you did.

http://www.astrologyzone.com/forecasts/monthly/virgo_full.php

That’s one of the main points for my horoscope this month… All I can think of is like, “Haaaayyyyy isn’t that like the end of HYPE and npTribune?!” LOL. I dunno. I sure as hell hope I will be very proud of HYPE and npTribune at the end of it all!

Guh. Just 4 more days till colourproofing. D:

I am just really, really angry with the world in general. To be more specific, I’m very annoyed with certain individuals who just really piss me off with their lackadaisical attitudes and inability to be efficient and effective workers. Not do they not produce work, they also happen to think that they are in the right and get all pissy when I try to get more things done: aka assign them more work.

It just really pisses me off so bad that I can’t help but rage all over my keyboard as I type furiously.

Even shouting and yelling at their imaginary figures (I can’t possibly do that to them in person, can I? They’re too weak to take such ‘strong’ criticism.) does not help. Well, it did help the anger abate a little, but after that? The anger just came back.

It’s like this volcano that has errupted and the lava just refuses to go away, because the fissure created is connected to this over heated vat of anger that’s bubbling and keeps producing more.

URGH. I shall go back to editing and hope that yes, somehow I will be able to get rid of this churning vat of anger roiling in my stomach.