Sigh.
I really, really, really should have known better than to take anything at face value. Obviously, information is now coming to light about the… instability about certain things that I’d thought was already confirmed. After all, if you were told by God that you’d be an Angel, surely you’d believe what He said.
Don’t trust Him, though.
There’s always bureaucracy to get through. Probably a Council of Angels who are in charge of so-and-so who would probably tell you there’s this and that form to be signed, procedures to follow, things to get approved first before anything is confirmed.
Gableagrgh.
That’s Gobbledygook. My version.
I really feel like complaining, but seriously. It was really too good an offer to be true, and you know what they say about things too good to be true. They’re usually too good to be true, and there’s usually a catch in it. But I’m not going to continue ramble about this, especially since the information is second-hand. Let’s just take things one step at a time, and see what happens first-hand.
I’m a bit frightened, though. And nervous. And when I’m nervous, I tend to giggle. A lot. That never happened in the past, by the way. So it’s probably part of a change in me.
There really hasn’t been much to talk about me. Life so far… It’s mostly been content. There isn’t much I’m interested in now. Except maybe Tokio Hotel and even then I see my interest slowly waning. There’s only so much information you can absorb before it all becomes the same old news. Same thing happened to MCR, AL, OB & etc.
But TH hasn’t been all for naught. I think Bill is a really inspirational character. Besides being a Virgo (like me ^^), he’s strong and confident and sexy and funny and cute and romantic and… there. You know, living. And TH has come so far since they first started. How can you not be inspired and amazed? From playing small gigs to huge stadium concerts with pyrotechnics all around Europe and United States, I’d say that’s a pretty long journey.
And despite all the flake he gets for dressing the way he does (like he’s gay, or he’s anorexic and going to die from starvation etc.), he still continues doing so. And I really admire him for that. Doing what you want, not caring about what people say about you because they’re always going to say something about you, believing in your dreams, reaching for the stars…
I want to be like that too. I want to be brave and strong and courageous like the Gryffindors and wear whatever I like and not care about what people think. (I’m still very paranoid and get anxious when people stare at me for too long) I want to live my dreams so that one day, when I die, my tombstone can read: “Death is life’s next great adventure, for she’d lived to the fullest”.
So… yeah.
I want to dance under the rain, sleep under the stars, go bungee jumping, trek around the world, see the Big Apple, take a cheesy tourist picture with my finger holding up the Leaning Tower of Pisa, sit in gondolas drifting in Venice, snow ski and make snow angels and have snowball fights somewhere snowy, speak five different languages (I’m two and a half language away from that goal!), knit gifts for my loved ones, take pictures of my travels, document the different cultures I witness as I fly around the world, make friends with people from everywhere, have a car race in a desert (kudos to you if you get my reference), make a movie (or two), write a book (or more), bake cookies, knit jumpers for my kids, sew and quilt and cook and make ice cream and just… live.
Life’s too short and we’re all going to die anyway, so why not make it as fun as we can and live it to the fullest?
After all, we are the heroes of our own story.
And I’m damn well going to have fun.
PS: Didn’t get how I jumped from topic to the next, but I love the hopeful and cheerful tone at the end! (:
PSS: I was going to talk about certain people at the end, but I gave up. Life’s too short to hold grudges too!
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