27.Dec.2007 Do you see me?

Sometimes I feel like screaming.

Like, screaming and yelling and banging my fists on the invisible glass wall that surrounds me, that stops my words from reaching out to people.

Sometimes I feel like no one listens to me at all. It’s as if they all treat me like some goddamned child who can’t think for her own, and refuse to take my opinions into account. They’ll continue talking about their own stuff, and I’ll be standing there feeling stupid because they aren’t paying attention at all.

It feels so frustrating.

Sometimes they look as though they’re listening. But I know that they aren’t. And it hurts when they ignore me, and I can’t help feeling useless. Unwanted. Insignificant.

I know they don’t really mean it.

But they can’t help doing it.

And sometimes I feel like screaming.